Dearest Mother&Father,

                      i simply can't take it anymore. ..

         yet as im unwillingly tied to ropes,

                                           chasing these hopeless dreams.

               please realize:
                  i've grown as a person, & can admit that i've made mistakes.

                         through JESUS` undying love, im different now!!

                                   simply hold up & take a good look at me.

                         and still through it all. ..

                                                                                                                                .. . life goes on. </3

fresh 081706

           I felt like updating. Even if it's below an older blog, whatever. Alright.. deep breath... geesh, where to begin.. .high school is over, horray & nay!? I start school at state in less than a week, but let's get out of the typical smyphical's to life. Recently i've truly realized what an independent person ive really become. Yeah.. . maybe its because I dont have any sister siblings? or maybe it's because of simple drama that ive learned to overcome? or maybe it's because of life and it's everyday cosmopolitan, and the many sophisticated elements? Which no one truly knew since I choose to rebel from it and it's tradition in my genetics. I really never quite knew what made me so full of independence. In addition, Ive realized that my choice of words and ways of expression have anonymously evolved. Ive been able to straight up tell the people who I love so dearly that, "I really dont care what you think of me, the truth of the matter is I'm me and the only two people who will know completely everything are God and I!" I mean you may think, "Big deal!?" but big deal it is. Considering that these person(s) were people who obtain more knowledge, more strength, more faith, and more calliber than I. My nerve? you could say.. . That shy, beady little girl who could really care less about what she would wear to school the very next day, now with such rage to voice out and express herself. Like a time bomb, gone off? The truth of the matter is that no matter what happens in my life, the good the bad, the ugly. I know that we and all things change in due time. Be it our motivations, to our religion and faith there is something constantly evolving in us. It's awkward to think about, but what's life without nothing but the truth?

" I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH "
                                                                                       -PHILIPPIANS 4:13

ID RATHER HAVE THE 0NE

 WH0 H0LDS MY HEART:)

TUESDAY
----->082305
erm just in case you are unaware er wish to forget & in
which you HAVE forgotten. :) i will take the oppurtunity
to remind you that » 050705jlyn&andrew haha ok that
was gay. ermm on the topic of me actually typing this. ...
what ever happened to xanga.  left  behind  in  the  dust.
abandoned for the overpopulated myspace. well, i heart
my xanga hah idk. school starts tomorrow. SENIORyear.
class of 2006 finally. & off ill be to college. as of college`
i will continue to pray for a basketball scholarship in the
san diego area. err, at least somewhere near SD. my
parents arent accepting any other location ; the obvious
» wanting me near home.  eeeek the things everyone
dreads. ..jk. but eh conneticut and north carolina simply
wont do, talk about west coast to east coast. it definitlely
would be an experience, but it's not GODs plan for me.
so i will press on w/ my last year of high school & cherish
every moment & along the way of course imma need guidance
and strength from the L0RDmyG0D. so prayer on mine!!
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till the next time i feel like informing you on my life
                                               - jlyn dejesus

THURSDAY
----> 050505
yeah haha finally decided to blog.
right now im in U.S. HISTORY
[ p er i od  2  out of my 3 pe r io ds ]
class work`n on some project on
world war II. yes.   sitting   in   the
"TREEhouse" of westview's library
w/           my         projecterPALz »
ADAM.      TOM       &       DARREN
yay for assigned qroup projectz!!
fasinating huh?? well yesterday was
interesting. .. right after school i hit
spring valley [ see tha nigglets i
havent seen in awhile ] watched
pheeelup&squishy's match fer a lil
then i went straight ta _ _ _ _ _ _ _
andrewSACAMAYbanez's pad hah
iono why but i like say`n his whole tag
ermm. andrew you know what went
down. .. hahah what a NIIGGGA :]
HAHA thanks ANDREW?? iGUESS
yeee.  the  rest  was usual. bore'n stuff. ..
N O T  to mention andrewsineligible
for      my     PROMhah.    but   is   all
good im still going. YEEE B0Y`EEEEE
and uhh. this saturday imma hit it down
in otay with MZ.trina @ her pad. visit
tha eastlake/otay  heads  again.  heh.
OH  &   V      E       R      N     O      N!!
you   ready   to     get   BALLED  up?!
i MISS AWL`YALL. out     <3JLYN

edito yo.
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yesterday. ..ian & starfishB0Y :P
asked me to their PROMz. hehe
ya`ll are so cute. i cant waaaiiiiiit!!

edito one more time
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i MiSS MY LONG HAiR :[
L0RD,  i pray for more hair.. amen